It seems that my brain is tired of the Blue Blahs of Winter. It has developed a defense mechanism: forgetfulness. You’ve heard the phrase “forget your troubles”? That’s what I’m doing.

Yesterday I experienced some small success at work. It was followed by a couple hours of satisfaction, until I received a call from a project manager that reminded me of another project that is due this week. I had conveniently forgotten about it, allowing me those few moments of blissful ignorance.

And then this morning I was sitting in bed, thinking about my finances and how I seem to be in good shape… and whoops! Forgot to make car a payment this month. So that’s why I was feeling so good about myself.

Even so, I still feel a little happier today. Which probably means that in about 20 minutes I’ll remember that I have heart cancer. Oh well, it feels good now.

Once again, I missed Newlyweds: Nick and Jessica. Oh well. It just gives me another reason to watch the inevitable marathon.

I remembered that I forgot it because I was out for dinner last night with Dan and Christy, and Christy brought it up. Christy made me laugh when she was talking about that show. She said, “That Jessica isn’t as snooty as I expected. And she’s very pleasant to look at.”

Yes. Yes, she is. She is very pleasant to look at. She gives me a warm feeling in my heart… warm like oh my god, the cancer!.

Heh. Just kidding.

And before you get all, “That’s not funny, Gerry. You shouldn’t joke about cancer. My great aunt on my mother’s side had heart cancer”… lighten up. If you can’t joke about cancer, well, then that’s when the cancer wins. Or the terrorists. Somebody. Somebody wins. I forget who.

Cancer is on my mind because right now I’m selling 50-50 tickets for my Relay for Life team. So there. I’m doing something about it. Whenever people ask me where the money goes, my favorite answer is, “Cancer (We’re against it).” Like it’s a political issue on which you have to make your position clear. I always laugh when I hear somebody say, “I’m raising money for Leukemia”, or some other disease. Why? Is Leukemia down on its luck? Is it not infecting as many people as it could if it just had a couple more bucks? Well then, by all means, let’s help Leukemia out! Raising money for hunger? Sure! Here’s a few dollars, make sure you take some food away from that fat kid down the block.

O.K., time to get to work. I don’t remember why, it just seems like something I should be doing.